Good News!

My doctor just called and informed me that officially the cancer has not spread!!!! It was looking that way, but with me, it is best to be sure!

Plus, because I have not experienced any hot flashes, she is confident my surgery was a success :D I mean technically we still won't know until radiation is through, but the odds are in my favor!

I am going to be posting the whole story of how this all began. But I should warn you, the information is a little graphic and personal. If you don't want the over share, don't read it! I also would like to add that I am extremely open about everything going on, so if you have any questions, feel free to ask! This whole thing has been very confusing for me and I am sure for everyone around me. I find it is much easier to deal with, by being open and honest!

Success!

Surgery went really well. My stomach hurts pretty bad though :(  My shoulders are killing me too. I am hoping that in the next day I can get up and walk around without all this pain. They cut me open in 6 little spots on my abdomen. Which I suppose is better than one long scar across me!

I loved the staff! Everyone was super nice. They were very attentive even though I was a little bitchy at times. I felt like such a baby! I am on a lot of pain meds too. So I haven't really been able to call or text anyone back. I was playing scramble (online boggle) with a friend and fell asleep half way through! I guess it's good that I can be comfortable enough right now to fall asleep anywhere...

They said they won't know for sure for a couple weeks, but it looks like the cancer has not spread! YAY!

let's just take a moment to celebrate that!!!!

I will try my hardest to text back everyone this week! The amount of support I have received so far has been unbelievable. I can't tell you how much I love it when I wake up and I have text after text of support.

As of right now I have a chemo and radiation appt. tomorrow. I am thinking I need to cancel both because I can barely move! The chemo is just to explain how it will work and what I will be doing, the radiation is to get me all measured correctly and set up the final details about me starting. We will see how that goes!!!!

I am hungry.

That's it. I have a surgery in the morning so I can't eat.

Surgery Monday!

I am so scared, I have never had any major surgery. This will be my first experience with anesthesia as well. It didn't help that I watched the last 5 episodes of Greys Anatomy last night either. Now I am convinced my doctors will either be fighting or making out while I am on the table! I had to go in for a pre-op questionnaire that included what to do if I start dying. She said "we will do anything, including CPR, is that ok?" UMM YES PLEASE!!! Do whatever it takes! I want to live!!!

On a happy note, I went to my radiation orientation and it doesn't seem nearly as scary I as thought it would be. I am going to be on a pretty strict diet, especially with the chemo. But oddly enough I need to stay away from most vitamins. They say that certain vitamins are meant to fight bad things in your body and since radiation is a "bad thing" it defeats the purpose. Also I can't really have fried food or ground beef, only skinless chicken and certain cuts of meat. Plus I need a lot of protein so they want me to eat eggs, cheese, and milk like crazy. Aside from the diet part, everything seems pretty easy. He said the radiation will only take 15 to 30 minutes a day, 5 days a week. I will just lay on a bed and have some sort of machine beam over me. I will not feel the effects of it immediately. So if I feel safe enough to drive there, then I will be fine to drive home. Usually you get the major side effects about 3 weeks in, and they don't leave until 4 to 6 weeks after treatments are over.

Next Thursday I have my Chemotherapy orientation. I am really scared about that but I also know that this is just part of the battle. I will be fine. I will beat this!